Monday, June 29, 2009
FRIDAY, June 25th- the scale read 220.4 and I am excited about 5 lbs since last week, keeps coming off with the exercise and sacrifice. No magic pill. Wore a fitted blouse that I havent worn in years and my black pants. I walked into the office and immediately got the reaction I wanted. "the weight is coming off !!!". Excited. Breakfast- sweet Fen brought me Burger King as she forgot I was on the weight loss challenge. Ate weight watchers yogurt with bare naked granola & nut mix. Ate some triscut- whole wheat. This reminds me so much of my mom becasue she always tried to lose weight even as far back as I can remember. She always bought triscut and I remember disliking them and then eating them with jelly and any other invention we could think of. LOL! I took my salad with grilled chicken and ate it on my way home. Grabbed the kids and headed off to the gym. Went to the pool, OMG the weather was phenomenal. Ate at the gym- life cafe- turkey and avocado sandwich on ciabatta bread, immediately felt overly full. ate only half the bun which I suspected had a gazillion calories...180 I think it said on google search. Drank plenty of water as I had at least 3 empty bottles to take out of my bags as I got home. We are expecting our Ryan to come tomorrow and we have a million things to do. Picked up Del Rio for tremayne and some carne asada steak tacos on corn tortillas, ate one at 8;30pm. Drank water.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
170 thats 490 calories wow!!! it adds up. I am not even counting the watermelon.
Its hard. Sometimes it honestly brings me to tears.... thinking how hard this is!!! Really hard. You sacrifice, you make choices of not eating those fatty foods, those foods that smell and taste so good. Its hard, its difficult, its tempting. I can look at them and decide. I am so amazed at my determination... So proud of myself and what is yet to come.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
While concluding my day at around 5:15pm ate about 3 rice cakes... came home ate a white peach yum and cut up my salad for tomorrow. Ate watermelon.
made myself a 1/4 size whole wheat tortilla and egg beaters and sprinkled some WEIGHT watchers cheese 70 calories 4 g fat... no carbs? 50 + 20 + 50= 120 calories before gym... some protein in eggs.
Went to gym stairmaster 10 minutes I am sore...106 calories and precor 45 minutes 406 calories and some abs, hip abductor, arms, back, and leg machine. 8pm to 10pm
came home at 10 updated blog and goodnight!!!
OMG almost forgot.... patients mom came in was over 300 lbs... last time i saw her last year lost 174 lbs.... inspiring real life story... 1 year -- 6months nothing but protein, fruits, and vegetables and 6 months with a trainer.
great real story, it can happen, she said the same thing I have been saying all along... "no magic pill, you gotta do the work"
Sweat it baby!!! I am really playing hard.. Dedicated, determined, and focused
110 slice of whole wheat bread
110 kashi bar
1/2 cup of oatmeal (organic) not liking 65 calories
white peach at home -- 60 c
went and got some groceries after gym... did stairmaster for 20 minutes 190 c and 230 for 30 minutes on the elliptical precor with Christy a girl i met at the gym and taught me about the precor machine because of the incline and resistance you get more upper body and glut exercises... and we all know I need help there.
Monday, June 22, 2009
went to ortho appt with kids at 3pm ate 2 slices of whole wheat bread 150 calories with jelly 20 calories per tablespoon- low sugar and peanut butter 150 calories I am sure per teaspoon -that was low calories less fat Jiffy... 320 at least and drank some gatorade 350 calories
and came home and worked until 5:15pm then left met diana for my check went to gym AGAIN at 5:45pm got on stairmaster okay my newest conquest 20minutes 206 calories OMG what a feeling it gets your heart going. I didnt know you have different levels...Whew! then worked back and arms new machines thanks cesar and allison for cheering me on!!! I cashed my paycheck and deposited, got kids Subway-meatball marinara sandwiches and came home to work again
8pm I ate about 5oz of cornflakes and skim milk... tastes exactly like 2% no difference... 0 fat though yeah... 90 calories for a cup... so maybe 150 calories
I am going to focus on more meals and a gym routine at 5:30am-
7am breakfast -- 300 calories
9am snack - 100 calories
11am snack - 100 calories
1pm lunch 300 calories
3pm snack -100 calories
6pm Dinner- 300 calories total 1200 calories dailyI rode the PRECOR machine and it is a difference than the standard elliptical. The incline and resistance rotation really makes you feel it. 30 minutes 300 or more calories okay. I was wondering the difference, but definately its more challenging. I felt it and everything I did yesterday on the machines. Glutes, hips and abs and arms... Whew!
So I am excited but begrudgingly wondering if the announcement at the office will kick start some people into action. One coworker congratulated me and then said... I guess mozarella sticks and route 44 coke for breakfast isnt going to do it, huh?! I am amazed.
Everything I have read and focus on... is the hard work. You have to work it! you have to push yourself, you have to sweat and shed a couple of tears. I did last night on my way home... like I was pumped, but realized this is hard. Really hard. You want to eat the chocolate (reeses) for me peanut butter cups, you want the cheeseburgers and fries but you have to let it go.... You have to deny the bad stuff and accept the good stuff.
I have said from the start, I don't want to make this so intolerable that i fall back to my old habits and thats what it is. BAD OLD HABITS.... Make new ones. I totally see the difference in my resistance and determination. I am one of those who is obsessive with things and this is no different. My dear friend and coworker says she has put on 20 lbs since december and I automatic ally asked-- "why" and she gave the most honest answer-- because she didnt really care and that is true, when you really dont care... you justify eating that way...because you really dont care. Hope I can get an afternoon workout later.
Lunch, 1/2 cup of tuna from the gym with celery and tasted maybe like salt... hope not... 4 baked lays chips and one bit of a banana nut muffin, water.
made 1 serving 70 calories of egg beaters option... cheese, and low carb whole wheat tortilla... I feel hot like if I was exercising...
Read an excellent article about jump starting your day at the gym... TOMORROW thats me at 5am-- you burn more fat by exercising early and start your day right. I use to think that was just an exaggerated approach from many, now I know the reason. Two workout a day really boot it up. I heard from an unknown source, someone I didnt even know who congratulated me over the phone as I called into the office in regards to a patient. She said "congratulations on your 14 lbs weight loss..., they were talking about you in huddle ". That was the most encouraging news yet. Of course I cant see it or the ones closest to me. But I'm working on it! soon-- like my brother Carlos says after the 20 lbs mark.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
gatorade... lunch watermelon, gatorade, and a white peach.
watermelon, orange slices x3 and water at pool took kids around 3pm to 5:47pm. Picked up some Mcdonalds for the kids and came home. Heated up my 1/3 size bean burger from my take home food from Chilis and ate a little bit and ate 1/2 of a kashi bar. Jorge came by to get girls and I took Darious home and went to gym
Elliptical for an hour 630 calories and machines, hip, back, arms, abs -- whew! I worked it.
Finally feel energized, need to get me some finally!.... LOL! and excited scale says 224.5 at the end of the day.
Focused, determined, and energized...
Focused, determined, excited... motivated.
Left drank water and Gatorade 50 calories
went to meet my brother Jorge on a soccer field for a scrimmage/practice. I ran around some, the sun was hot!!!
Went to Chilis--one of their health meals includes option of less than 750 calories.//// OMG...13 grams of fat I think... thats their healthy options. Got a bean burger, cut in half and ate the "meat" bean part only, ate some broccoli and drank water.
Drank more of Gatorade
My youngest brother Gustavo came by to hang out and eat.. his fiancee' is out of town and he was hungry. Made pico de gallo with avocado I dont even care the calories-- good natural and healthy. Natural white onions, long green onions, tomatoes, cilantro, n o seasoning... Yum
I made Buena Vida low calorie low carb 70 calories whole wheat tortilla yum!!! and 4 corn tortillas 220 calories meat I dont even know how to count that yet. 300 calories at least and pico de gallo.... 650..
Ate a bowl of cereal after ... wow! what was I going through... 150 calories more...
tonights weight 226.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Lunch 1/2 turkey sandwich on wheat at Atlanta Bread company with caesar salad that I ate about 5 spoonfuls with some croutons... I know that was bad.
water... worked on the yard for a bit, scrubbed the front doorway which made me thirsty... and drank more water...
got darious from Naomis house and came home.took a nap, feeling tired. jorge called after a soccer practice and we all met at Del Rio
met jorge at del rio... drank water
Miranda came home with us, but soon bailed out with a stomach upset. Jorge and abbys date night was cut short. LOL! kids...
went to gym late and did an hour on the elliptical again for 630 calories burned and some ab machines and waist and leg and hips.... steam room
weight in 225.. barefoot.
Came home drank about 2oz of gatorade.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
1 ea(16.5 oz)(467.8 gm)
should have known better !!!! I ate and drank maybe 2/3 of my smart water 33.8 oz bottle of water. I was so hungry.... NOT A GOOD THING. I immediately felt sick to my stomach and threw up multiple times. That did not set well with my stomach... I noticed that I felt unbearebly full and sick. or maybe it was looking up the calorie count... Anyways... had about 3 oz of orange juice and ice.
100 calories honey wheat bread
0 calories 1tsp creme cheese spread
10 calories 1 tsp jelly
65 calories small boiled egg
Monday, June 15, 2009
for dinner Mcdonalds nasty southwest salad which I couldnt finish and the little bits of chips was disgusting. I used my home dressing no calorie ranch and drank some water mixed with about 3 0z of cran apple juice filled with sugar, yikes. I ate a small bowl of cheerios with skim milk, so I am feeling really full and uncomfortable right now. had about 2 hours at the pool which I mainly stayed just laying around in the sun. Fun!!! day
going to the gym and pool on my am break with kids.
Sunday afternoon, I took a nap and noted that I was anxiously hungry when I woke up-- have not drank or eaten anything at all- its after 12 noon, that is not good... House is clean though. Some sacrifice lol. Went to taco mac wanted some BEEF, Cut my Blue cheese cheeseburger in half and ate it with only the thin bottom bun. ???250 calories, drank water and passed on the onion rings big, big , big sacrifice... ate 2 small onion rings, tasted and moved on. No mayo, no mustard, no ketchup.
I was invited to go to chastain park for a concert with my Dr. boss and was unsure how much food was it all about. I was crazy for some bread and ran to Ingles to get some wheat bread. I bought 12 grain bread Earthgrain Honey wheat berry bread which is 100 calories a slice and ate 2 which I am not proud of. I spread about 1 teaspoon of Fat free Philadelphia creme cheese spread- 15 calories 2 carbs. 0% fat.
At Chastain, I ate about 10 shrimp with some sauce, not mayo or sour creme but white sauce with veggies, ate 1/2 of a taquito which I am sure was 70 calories or so, and about 4 oz of a Heineken just for ambience LOL! Drank 1/2 of a coke zero. and ate 2 club crackers with cheese. But hard my cardio workout with how much dancing, clapping, and goofing off we did. Great time. Approx. 500 calories or more. I did notice that I enjoyed the shrimp so much I was kind of obsessed with the idea of eating more. I did eat one sushi rice roll with wasabi sauce and a dash of soy sauce.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
New! Harvest Grain' N Nut Combo
Two Harvest Grain ’N Nut® pancakes loaded
with blueberries and topped with sliced
bananas. Served with scrambled
570 / 76g / 20g / 3.5g / 23g / 1090mg
now to painting and sanding the living we have to get these home projects done. cannot remember what the rest of day consisted of....
Thursday, June 11, 2009
morning weight 226.2 this kinda of a gross detail but I must include it, since the first day I have cut out the Coca cola and bad foods I have noticed my kidneys have doing a much better job if you catch my drift... my poor kidneys I abused you for 9 years.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Calculate daily calorie intake.... Oatmeal 110 calories, banana maybe 80 rice cakes 45, grapes 50, breakfast and a.m. 285 total Lunch chicken 150 ? peas 80 avocado 40 270total dinner: chicken 200 and corn tortillas 130 calories 330 calories total ----- subtotal daily 285+270+330 total 885 total for the day??? I encorporated some exercise again today with a fast trot maybe a .75 mile. for 25 minutes or so?
Morning weight was 226.2 evening weight 228.2 Another day in control!!!!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Thurs, June 4th, Houston. Woke up today went to panaderia, tacqueria, tamaleria and every other wonderful "ERIA" there is here in texas. Fresh, cooked food, ready to serve. Yum! I ate a scrambled egg with potatoes on a flour tortilla wrap very small, drank 4oz of lemonade. Ate 2 meat tamales... yikes! a half of a bolillo bread...OMG... Drank 2 diet cokes today. For lunch... I really did BAD!!!!!!!! I took the girls and mom to mall- WILLOWBROOK MALL. We ate at the food court food. Split a grilled chicken and brocolli beef and rice plate with mom. Drank 1/4 of strawberry shake from Chick-fil-A. Not Good!!! the food must have had MSG eventhough the sign said it didnt because within an hour I had a massive headache. I took some Advil and water and endured. I did not eat anything else today.
Friday, June 5th, Houston: Ate some oatmeal for breakfast. Took a banana, raisins, and a peach with me. Ate them as a snack at 10:30am and 11:30am i guess. At 1pm or so I boiled an egg and ate it on 1/4 of a bollilo roll and drank water. For dinner at 6pm I had a steak at appleby's water and brocolli, divided my plate in half and brought the rest home. I am determined to get this weight off. I need to incorporate an exercise next. Spending these 2 days with my mother has made me ever the more determined. I have heated her bags up for the dialysis and tell myself... in my hands I hold the key to my health and longevity. Literally, you can decide to put that awesome donut in your mouth or pop some fresh cherries or a banana. I ate 10 fresh cherries today 5 this early afternoon and 5 about 30 minutes after dinner as my dessert. wISH me the best guys I so need to do this.
saturday, June 6th--graduation, but more than anything party day...JK! raquel... The graduation was super emotional..thinking that in less than a year I will be doing this same thing for my son and most likely traveling to Phoenix.
okay so how are you suppose to really be good with all this stuff.... I did it!!!!!!!! I woke up had BREAKFAST: oatmeal, banana, ate some raisins for my morning snack. For Lunch: picked up 2 taco de carne asada from Tacos Aranda on Hwy 6, For dinner at the partee*** ate Steak rice, guacamole pico de gallo, drank about 4oz of Cafe' Zinfadel wine, water and ate a mango. Drank about 8oz of Lite Cranberry juice. Carried my smart water large bottle around and drank that.
Sunday, June 7th traveled woke up ate my oatmeal. banana for am snack. Ate Lunch: 2 grilled wings. Yogurt before lunch. Before I left Houston: Dinner about 7 oz of carne milenasa cut (thin sliced) 2 flour tortillas and guacamole picadillo, drank water x2 smart waters.
Monday, June 8th... woke up tired but ready to work, appreciative of my job, my health, my sanity, my husband, my children and life itself. I can't remember if I had breakfast, which means I don't believe I even did, not because I didnt want to, but because I was pressed for time with leaving to the airport and stressing about leaving the work...Mom was feeling bad and I was consumed with figuring out what is going on with my mom. I went to airport and picked them up took them to their house. Upon arriving my after a 45 drive, my dad realizes his car is at my aunts house on Roswell rd. Okay, woah! its all good. Mom showered and seemed to relax after she saw all her flowering plants and her cardinals are still coming to the bird house for seeds. I drank a Sprite Zero and left on another trek from Stone Mountain to Roswell Rd. I felt hurried and concerned with everything going on, but had to hurry back to my job. Recieved a reasurring email from our office Administrator thanking me for keeping her in the loop and making up my time. I went to KFC for the kids, and for a milisecond I will admit that the idea of justifying getting a burger next door at MCDONALDS was on my mind- rather I went to KFC for lunch, I discovered that KFC has grilled chicken, I ate 3 small grilled wings and about 2 oz of green beans drank water and a few sips of diet pepsi which was not palatable. For dinner, I ordered take out from Del Rio got a trio (meats- carne asada, chicken, and shrimp for tremayne. Quesadillas and black beans for the kids and I order a small (approx 5 oz) of a caldo with chicken (broth) rice, chicken breast and guacamole slivers, I'm sure the sodium content was out of this world. Drank an Lipton Diet Green tea and some water. Went to the grocery store for fruit and some chicken breast that I will grill for tomorrows lunch. The freezer meals are unappetizing to me TOTALLY! and the sodium content is counterproductive in my opinion. I packed fruit and snacks or raisins, grapes, and a nectarine and its a family thing from now on. Health and good choices. Going to go to gym to walk on threadmill. Another day. I am going to run to Target to get a scale because according to my moms scale my weight read 227.8 so I am not really sure if thats correct doesn't seem or look like 10 lbs less, but may be just water weight or a bad scale.
I look exhausted, abit dissapointed, but determined to press forward.