Sunday, June 28th

Its Ryans' arrival day, Woooo Hoooo!!!!!! I woke up and started cleaning house. Washing clothes etc. Trey went to Home Depot by himself as I am more of a help here cleaning and organizing then just driving with him. My calculations were pretty accurate and Tremayne decided to make the first load with the tile due to the amount that was left. I cleaned the house. Ate cereal my usual quick morning food with the granola mix. nervous and slowly growing impatient with all that has to be done. But its coming along good. Tremayne left and Brandon and I checked the remainding tile and followed close behind, 2nd trip for the wood floors and the slate stone parquet floors for the rooms including train room and my office. Hungry but too busy to eat, on way out got MCD for kids and a grilled chicken sandwich I should of known better with the size of the chicken on the "whole honey wheat roll" it was 420 calories and 10 g of fat. Unbelievable. Probably, more than I have eaten in a awhile in one sitting. Ran to Austell and back and terrifically tired and no gym again. Ugh! We ate delrio again and she got my order wrong so gave me a carne asada plate. Ate two tacos with corn tortillas and some black beans.

saturday, June 27th

We have so much to do. Woke up around 10am- so I am hungry and behind on food. Ate corn flakes with granola. Went to taco mac around 2pm and ate blue cheese burger no bun. I dont know why I like that combination the hot sauce with the tangy of blue cheese. Drank water and ate some of tremaynes vegetables. Ran around doing errands went up to Austell Home Depot Clearance Center and decided on the floor for all the rooms. Went in the Envoy so we will have to wait until tomorrow to come back and pick up the floors. Was not able to go to gym today, feel bummed out. We will have alot to do tomorrow.

Friday, June 26th

I have to go back and post about friday through sunday, eventhough it seems like I have been non stop I have not been able to go to the gym. Except Friday. Woke up feeling good

FRIDAY, June 25th- the scale read 220.4 and I am excited about 5 lbs since last week, keeps coming off with the exercise and sacrifice. No magic pill. Wore a fitted blouse that I havent worn in years and my black pants. I walked into the office and immediately got the reaction I wanted. "the weight is coming off !!!". Excited. Breakfast- sweet Fen brought me Burger King as she forgot I was on the weight loss challenge. Ate weight watchers yogurt with bare naked granola & nut mix. Ate some triscut- whole wheat. This reminds me so much of my mom becasue she always tried to lose weight even as far back as I can remember. She always bought triscut and I remember disliking them and then eating them with jelly and any other invention we could think of. LOL! I took my salad with grilled chicken and ate it on my way home. Grabbed the kids and headed off to the gym. Went to the pool, OMG the weather was phenomenal. Ate at the gym- life cafe- turkey and avocado sandwich on ciabatta bread, immediately felt overly full. ate only half the bun which I suspected had a gazillion calories...180 I think it said on google search. Drank plenty of water as I had at least 3 empty bottles to take out of my bags as I got home. We are expecting our Ryan to come tomorrow and we have a million things to do. Picked up Del Rio for tremayne and some carne asada steak tacos on corn tortillas, ate one at 8;30pm. Drank water.

thursday, june 25th pm

I have eaten alot today... for my 2:30pm I ate a bowl of corn flakes and skim milk and sprinkled some oats and nuts and sesame seeds... bare naked mixture... before we hit the pool again....

then at 7:30pm ate my salad w\ grilled chicken. tomatoes and cucumbers . I think I really wanted to eat it because I devoured it. It tasted great and I think I may have eaten too quickly or eaten to hastily or didnt listen when I started getting full because I feel kinda extra full right now.

where is the weightloss I dont see ???

this is the statement I keep telling myself...I do notice it in the oddest place... My shoulders, literally in the fat that held my head to my shoulder. I know you are laughing but its true like the humps are that big. I know it may be weird or physcho but I think it is where I have seen it most I dont feel like a 250lbs football player. I can see some little muscle trying to peak on my arms as I do the precor machine and the love handles and back handles... can you catch my drift... in the middrift area.. okay that was lame. But honestly. I weigh myself and realize 238.7 to 222 is a big difference. I still ahve so much to go but on the right path. I find myself looking at the clock today to see when can I eat again. I guess when you have fat all over your body in bulges and bumps and thats not what people see in you everyday, as you start losing that, who is going to notice but the ones who see you unrobed... I want all these bumps and bulges gone.

breakfast tortilla 70 cal egg beaters 1/2 serving cup- 30 and cheese WW 5 grams of fat but 50 calories- 150 calories 7:30am 9:30am OMG I cant wait to eat again. Watermelon and one slice of wheat bread 70 cal 1 tsp of peanut butter low fat low chol. Yeah right! lOL! 90 calories and sugar free jelly 10 calories 170 calories. Ready for the pool at Lifetime with kids right at 10:30am... ate 11:30- Lunch :watermelon, h20, another 70 calories tortilla and 1/2 serv cup of 30 calories of egg beaters and cheese 150 calories and a sprinkle of nuts- Bare Naked - Have to slim down on my 3:30pm food just snack total so far today... 150
170
170 thats 490 calories wow!!! it adds up. I am not even counting the watermelon.

thursday, June 25th

I wake up tired, yes I know I am always tired and my muscles hurt. Maybe thats it.... Just unusued muscles that lay dorment for so long have awaken and reminded me that- Oh yeah! there are biceps and triceps and latis... dorsi and this and that... you get the picture. Ouch !!! By the way.. am weight was 222.4 (238.7) starting weight June 1st, challenge began for me June 4th.... I have come to some realizations this week... If you lose 15lbs and you are 60 + overweight you are still going to be 45+ lbs overweight... You are still overweight and its not going to look pretty. You expect more you, realize now you have a higher expectation of yourself. I am content with the determination part of this whole challenge and am vested in 100%. I wonder about others. I have been there! The whole blah situation, later, next time, tomorrow... one day... For me its every second, every moment, a choice, a challenge....

Its hard. Sometimes it honestly brings me to tears.... thinking how hard this is!!! Really hard. You sacrifice, you make choices of not eating those fatty foods, those foods that smell and taste so good. Its hard, its difficult, its tempting. I can look at them and decide. I am so amazed at my determination... So proud of myself and what is yet to come.