so its aug 8th and im at 203 lbs and exercisimg and eatimg well. I had half Of a blue cheese burger my treat! And I found another yummy treat- tutti fruitti yum. I went to walmart on Thursday pm to find a kid friendly tshirt and only found a size 16/18 and too big - wow! But was demoralized at trying on some pants. I felt fat andy legs looked horrible! I worked out hard yesterday with Brian. I did the stair master for 20 mins. And threadmill and abs. Will do legs again today! I see the difference iny thighs especially with the cellulite
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friday, july 31st

we are allbummed out at CDCOA with SHarine bad news for her baby, Faye she just turned 2 years old and has been diagnosed with Leukemia as of 3am this morning. We are sick with concern and want to just make it a bad dream. We all have little ones and feel the pain and agony. I am at 206 and today it just doesnt seem to matter.

breakfast at 9am coffee and creamer

food: steak 40z
2 spoonfuls of white rice
salad (italian blend)
tomatoes
fat free dressing
broccoli
and carrots
water

wed july 29th 2009 weight 207 lbs

i am not feeling well today. I have literally passed the gym 3 times today to find myself going home because of an uncooperative and sleepy 9 year old girl. Went to Dacula park and ran 4 miles with casey.

its july 28th Monday

So its July 28th and I did NOT do good yesterday, stemming from an acrimonious dismissal of my son back to arizona, I overate and actually endulged in pizza yesterday. Oh lets go back a little further, my husband picked up dinner Little Ceasar's for chris and being upset that I didnt have my phone charged and able to speak to me while I was at the gym for "4 hours". Okay the real story is this. Ryan is mad because I didnt buy him a laptop, Zune, or IPHONE. For real, we got to the airport right on time and I couldnt send his luggage which I promptly mailed a box with all his belongings sans the suitcase. I spoke to tremayne at 8pm on Sunday evening as I dropped Gaby off at Abbys' and headed to gym, he was heading back out to get chris something to eat...Little ceasars, i guess he woke up concerned at some point to realize I was not back from gym yet and it was after 10;30am. he called Jorge and abby inquiring about me... YEP! That is so not my husband. He must of been really concerned, because he called screaming and throwing a fit which I was home by 10:55 from gym, but it was not I repeat not 4 hours... OMG.. anyways, so I worked from home on Monday and yet still tremayne was fuming and not wanting to have a conversation... OH did I mention he took my car... yep the one he pays for and cleans and pays for... yep he took the envoy to work. Anyways, I crept up on the scale yesterday to 208 which I panicked.

Today I am at 207 or so and I am feeling it. I am bloated and cramping and not happy, besides I wore these khaki pants that fit terribly and had to all day feel the baggy sensationation when I walked to back office and back.

Finished the invites for connie and mailed to houston express day.... 26.55 ouch that hurts being that I am charging her only 75.00.

I have to get back to gym... I took off last night and felt guilty. I hope that Tremayne comes home in a better mood and I can actually escape to go to the gym... as he puts it... its not the gym.. its me having my ophone uncharged. which reminds me.... let me charge up the phone. now

i had 1/2 of a blue cheese burger and 3 onion rings. I have waited for this moment for days or weeks actually but we have bee so busy with doing the floors and the gym I have not had a chance. It was we,l worth it due to the taste but after 2 glasses of 16.oz of h20 I am ab out to pop. this is the first time we have gone out as a complete family. I am enjoying this. I am tired and going to run tonight hopefully I can find a lit running track at one of the parks. I am weighing 209 am weight and this afternoon before this yummy food I was at 210... dow n from 238 seems lime a great accomplishment and I should be ecstatic but still the amount left to loose is still so overwhelming that I can only imagine getting there. I kmnow I can and can't wait to fit in a size 10 or 12 at least soon enough. I am ndown to size 16 and counting and feel alot better. I have so much to go but will keep focused as usual.

its monday

its monday and I have been contemplating on whether to call in or work today since i dont feel well. I dont know if its a stomach bug or just exhaustion. feeling queezy am weight 213. Hope to be down to 207 by weekend. 6 lbs or so more... Lets get at it! For the time being... let me go have breakfast.

its saturday almost 4 pm and nothing has been started on the floors in the living room yet... this is so starting to annoy me. I feel helpless when I can do so much by myself but depend on someone to do something that I do not know how to... anyways it will come along perfectly but its trying my patience.

I got up with tremayne early on a saturday am to go to the dmw for his motorcycle driving license exam and some breakfast withOUT THE kids. they still are going to sleep like at 5 or 6 am and coming out of hybernation around 2pm in the afternoon.... unfortunately true to the practice of waking up verociously hungry. Great feeding 4 teenagers.

It was 9am and I still have not eaten....I am literally nauseous... my body is asking for niutrition...We go to dwarf house on pleasant hill I ordered an omelet with all the vegetables and chicken, when i get my order I have a omelet soaked with cheese and plain.... UGGH ! requested a new one-- wanted my veggies intake... need them. Ordered diet lemonade... I didnt know that chick fil a has it... YUM!

Ate 1/3 of the omelet, the part that was not covered with cheese around 10am? and still at almost 4pm - I am literrally not hungry yet. I have been sipping on the tea since this am and having some lower back pain because of these heel sandals I"m blaming.

I did go to the gym friday evening,, cybex 10min and the wave... I caught the wave... dont think I am doing the motion correctly yet, but will keep trying... 100 on each machine 200 in cardio.. and did some abs... I am really amazed at how the body tells you... oh yeah here are muscles that hvae been dorment and now you want to put them to work...

wake up obliques and abdominal muscles I need you to start working. I am so proud at my progress of 24 lbs an dcounting.. am weight 214. I cant believe it but I still ahve much more to lose if we are looking at 150.... that is still 64 lbs to go. I can do it. Its July 11th and I have 7 seven weeks to go that is 49 days... I can get close but not enough... I will try to get down to 175 lbs by the end of this venture of the office challenge and hopefully by december 09 be down to 135 lbs. I am pretty sure I can do it.

starting weight 238.7 current weight 214.0 lost 24.7 lbs... on july 10th.