I want to be alone I want to be left alone at the same time I want support I want friendship I want a companion and this rode the same when I took three years ago is not an easy one

That a blaring headache

I've had pains on my side all day about Larry and headache I can't get rid of and a guilty conscience that erodes my spirit

I'm at this again I hate first days I hate start overs I hate do overs but sometimes you have to do them whether you want to or not and it's mainly that you don't want to but you have to do it

There are two people that I don't think truly know how much I appreciate their motivation, kindness, and friendship through round one in 2009 and 2010. That is Cesar tapia and Brian Byrdsong these nice looking, kind, buff men took a piece of their time to cheer me on and encourage me when I was overweight and very physically un attractive and showed kindness. I realize it more now than I ever did then and I can never thank them enough for the strength and focus they shared with me during that time. Now it's been a harder journey to return to what I know but a rewarding one to know I CAN DO THIS BY MYSELF. Before I had cheerleaders at work, patients who noticed, gym teachers, neighbors, and of course, 411 to share my every move. NOW, guess what I have most of that but the purpose is more intense. Go for it. Make a great and healthy life.

Half of spin and groove ... Gaby left groove class... Poor baby... With the culture diversity she has and no rhythm...